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♥Monday, November 09, 2009

i understood why people says life is like a show(in Chinese)
becoz i realised that this occurs in my life
my life is a show
which is scripted by someone great up there
i nv know what will happen next
but i have faith in it
so no matter what happen next in my life
i've decided not to fear,
not to hide
i will face all difficulties
coz i have YOU with me.

what ever that you are doing might hurt me
but i will stay strong
this family is breaking in to more pieces
my tears, my smile
which is real
and which is fake
does anyone know?
at times,
me, myself don't even know what emotion shall i put on
are there anyone who can teach me?
what ever i say can no longer change the fact
since you had made your mind
all i have now
is only YOU

FAMILY
suppose to be a name for a group of people
with joy, happiness and laughter
but mine,
it is now breaking down
i know i should not confess
and i did not want to
but i just to say it out!
since i did not know who to face to in this Earth
i shall put this here
so my heart will not be so full
my sorrow will be loosen

stupid me
who even thought of just going away
leaving a full stop in my life
if i were to end it here
what will happen to him?
my brother,
who was born w/o a proper family
w/o the love of a father
someone
who was brought into this world
even when the adults know that happiness will not be full for him
but why?!
why are you guys being so selfish?
hurting one is not enough
you guys want to hurt another

CHILDHOOD
what's that to me
i don't know
all i rmb are those bad one
good ones, may 1 or 2
growing up watching them fight
going home with blood on the walls
at the age of 6
i had alr learn to protect him
IF i can protect him at the age of 6
i will not allow anyone to destroy him now!
he is just 14 this year
his childhood might not be the best
i did not want his teenage time to be the same

Please!
i said please.
don't hurt us over and over again
you proclaim that you are hurting yourself as well
if it is so,
why do u continue in doing things like this?

this is a show
that no one can ever imagine
there is no preview on what will happen next
i will continue with this show
and see what will happen next
but i say to you,
i will protect my loves one
do not even have in mind to destroy anyone.

i've decided
since u did not keep the promise on keeping this family in pieces
i no longer have to keep my promise with u
i will go back to the house of GOD
where true love is
the love that i am longing for.
a place where i can find love,
encouragements,
joy,
happiness.

a voice of the broken heart..
강해 져야....
be strong....

with love
Cyra. 자헤

5:35 PM;

♥Wednesday, October 28, 2009

피곤 해요~

내 느낌

아무도 모르죠

어떻게 표현할해야할지 모르겠다

그러므로,

내가 표현하고 싶지 않아

무슨 사랑인가?

난 .. 질문

난 너무 낮은 느낌이

미소를 원하지만 방법을 몰라

나만의 세계

내 숨어있는 장소

만약 당신이 나를 밖으로 데리고

with love
Cyra. 자헤

11:20 PM;

♥Wednesday, October 21, 2009

FYI, this post will be a draggy, wordy and emotional one
if u can't take it pls don't continue reading

so here i starts everything
i think people around me will not feel anything wrong about me
but in the deepest end of my heart, i'm broke and lost
"WHAT'S NEXT?" i asked
GOD! What's the next path that you had plan for me to walk on?
It is about 1 yr ago since a thing like this happen
last year, in end of sept,
my mum burned my bible...
and this year,
she went to "create" problem to people around me
when she speaks,
i feels it was satan who was speaking to me
being accused, criticise etcs
these are all works of satan
i feel that i'm like in the wilderness
when Jesus was tempted by the devil
a year ago, he tries to do similar things
and somehow i fall into the trap
after tt incident, (maybe many does not know)
i start to hide myself inside a speacial box
that even when i tries to comes out, i can't
but now,
i tries to come out of this box,
i succeeded.
i have my head and body out
but someone else in the box tries to pulls me back
BUT!
this time round i did not let the stength of tt someone to pulls me back
i tried my best to come out of it
i know that all these are in the will of God
i'm willing to go through this
When God gave the permission to tt ugly satan,
he will protect me in a way
i have faith in Him
He is my KING of KINGS and LORD of LORDS
althought i feel so down because the person who accused
my church, my pastors, my zs, my cg leader, my God and me is my mum

i'm still proud and happy for myself
coz i'm now walking close with God
even when she hit me on my left
i gave her my right
coz my almighty Lord says in the bible
"whoever slaps you on your right cheek, turn the other to him also"

GOD! i think i've what you had taught me
now, i'm perpared for more
if there are more things that you have plan for me
i'm not worry, coz i have YOU in my life
in the name of JESUS all things shall be brought to past

i sing to you:
"Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from earth into Eternity"

You are my God now and forever..
never will i be away from You
my everything is Yours

even in my lowest point of time

i will hear only Your voice

only when i'm with You,
my knees will bow
my tongue will confess
only when i'm with You,
i'm no longer alone
i'm no longer afraid
coz i have you in my life

this is what i want You to know
my love for You will go on and on....

with love
Cyra. 자헤

7:23 PM;

♥Wednesday, October 14, 2009

HIHI!!!
damn cool right this pic?!
i like and hate this pic
like because i think the lighting i adjust until damn nice(for me)
hate because my face too big and i look super old!
but ahh
nvm~~

just a update for what i've done recently
the very very very important thing that is a must to post!!!
my unclejunsu drank coke on mon!
and i send him to acer...
dun noe what's wrong with it
i want it back badly!
i've spend 2 school days without lappy!!
there's a saying
"you can be naked in RP but u cannot afford not to have laptop with you!"
so i shall say,
i feel so naked this 2 days!
hahaha~~~
OH YA!!!
and i would like to praise laode for this
SHE ACC ME DOWN TO JURONG!
laode is well lan recently
and and
ACER BUILDING SHOULD BE IN FAIL BLOG
i will take a pic when i go there the next time
i so wanna bring bee bee there
but she need to study!

i think i have not post on my school since school starts
i'm currently having 4 sch days per week
thurs is my "off day"
my class is quite
but hopefully it is getting noisy and will continue to grow
somehow i miss old class although they are freaking noisy
but somehow noise is still needed!
and we(w65a) are currently addicted to winnie's iphone de taptap
since ytd!!
the photo of playing taptap is in my phone
and i'm too lazy to move myself to my room to get it
so i shall post it some other days

and last sun, we pre celebrated suhui's birthday!
56! Happy 18th birthday!
(56 is currently suhui's new nick name)
me and beebee baked cake for her
we were super high at 1st coz the cake is super successful!
however, the making of cream is WTH
i shall not recall it to make myself upset
so ya..
and this is the "unglam" suhui blowing the candles:

(suhui, i did not purposely post this, but this is the only pic of you with the cake i have)
edna went off early well the other 4 of us stayed
we seems to be having an grown up party
we were forced by suhui's popo to finish up the drink
singing songs
(WE SANG NIWAWA AND 3ZHILAOHU)
hahaha
till pass midnight
beebee's wellan drove us home

and today wednesday!
riverwalk for prayermeeting and bs
drew a super nice piece of art!
shall take a pic of it when i complete the whole thing
I'M GENIUS!!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~~

my toh beebee is currently jiayou-ing for her A
so i also must jiayou for her
toh bee bee
jia you jia you jia you
you can do it!!
dun think for the worse!
think the bright side of it!
heehee
after your As you are free~~~
i cook rabokki for you after your As ok!
hahahaha
hug hug, kiss kiss~~~

alright
and i shall end here....

(my auntie style top)
BYE!

(going off to bed so that i got enough strength for tml - morning PM and helping out in citycare~)

with love
Cyra. 자헤

10:40 PM;

♥Wednesday, September 30, 2009

a short update
ytd i did an extra doll
for suhui
and i think i'm super win
coz i finish it in about 4 hours.
but fail as i poke my finger(thumb) and it bleed for a while
the taste of blood is yucky.
anyway
the name for this doll is:
RAM RAM!
haha
i like this colour..
maybe i shall make one with this cloth.
haha
just like this

and KENJIO is confirm coming
there are puppy in the mummy dog tummy
and 1 is kenjio
and for those out there who are interested
i think we got a female one here
the owner insist to give us one more but we did not want
so if u wan i can help you ask
leave me a msg yeah^^

stop here since i'm lazy enough to get my charger out
and its gonna low batt soon

안녕 ♡♡♡~~

with love
Cyra. 자헤

11:27 PM;

♥Tuesday, September 29, 2009

여보, 이 봐!
안녕^-^

wondering whats i'm up too recently?
i mean for the past few weeks
I'm down with chicken pox
yes, at the age of 18
one thing/ disease down
although is chicken pox,
a illness,
but i can still thank God for this
coz this brought my relationship with my family closer
and for my family
one of the way to stay close is by watching SUMO
haha
and i got an IDOL out of them
actually my family member each have one
we even bet for the championship
not betting with money, but with a meal
but end up, it is just a bet for fun
nothing was paid.. haha
and this is my idol:

Baruto Kaito!
25 years old this year.
he just rocks
he is the only one who smile in the match
cool!!!
and for this match
his score is 12-3
good right
hahahaha

next,
this is thomas park jae bum
ex member of 2PM
this news was the news that shock me when i use the internet after the illness of chicken pox
i just find it ridiculous
but what have been done have been done
just wish him all the best for what to be coming for him

but i still think is the netizen that cause so many things to happen
i'm really in deep thoughts on how they manage their time out
i really need more time out of 24 hours.
can i have 34 hours a day?
i need a lot of time u noe..
like my PP
i'm still far away from it.
can help me?
haha

next,
i dyed my hair again
this is the colour
so now my hair colour is darker
toh beebee,
i'm no longer jippun ah lian hair
anyway, this hair dye is pretty good.
i recommend you guys to use it to.

this is BIN BIN and NINI
i made it for beebee and myself
i'm gonna make one more ugly doll for pris too,
for her birthday
i have to improve on my skills
to become a domestic housewife!
haha
(if you wonder why, my dream is to become a domestic housewife)

anyway,
the rest are my selca
prepare a bag to vomit.

i took this is a got a shock!
dun look like me
and on the other hand
look like ah lians
oh my
and i told bee that in this case,
i rather be a jippun ahlian look alike then a local ahlian look alike.

this is an atemp to make my mouth as round as possible
and i realise this is super act cute..
i dun understand how can ppl selca with this pose everytime
(this include myself..)
haha

i like the lighting in this pic.
just like this

lastly
this is my fac pic
i know it does not look really nice
but why still i like it?
this pic shows my DIMPLE!
heehee
and i think my smile is pretty nice
heehee
and beebee says look like jinnie
as in 2AM de jinnie
becoz of the smile and the eye..
not bad if i really do
since jinnie is my fav in 2AM

oh ya, hopefully i'm gonna have a puppy dog at home!
but one of the little dog was death in the mama dog tummy
hopefully the other doggy wun have any problem
if so i can have kenjio to my house
kenjio = banana = the name for the puppy dog

and it will be a shih tzu
if i have him, i will ensure i cut his hair regularly!
heehee

i shall stop here.
i know this is a wth post
but nvm
coz now is time for talk with my mum and me
heehee
bye

안녕히 주무세요~
사랑해~

with love
Cyra. 자헤

2:19 AM;

♥Tuesday, September 01, 2009

HI to all
quick update here
i've lost my phone
so if u happen to wan to find me and realised u can't reach to me
msn me yeah=)
so i'm currently on credit for my phone coz i nv pay a single cent when i get my phone
as it will be in my 1st bill
alright
so on i think last mon i went out with bee
we the keai couple who successfully lost our phone the same way
HOW DUMB AM I?!?!
(nono, pastor phill say must say cannot say this)
so.. HOW SMART AM I?!?!
and we also are the LG couple in tardies
and we also about the same size
hahaha
and i think her mum should make friend with my mum
her mum super CUTE can..
haha
her mum were clearing the storeroom when i'm there
and she dig out alot of thing
and i regrated not to take the pic of the MOUNTAINs of toilet paper
and her mum say her hobby is to collect toilet paper..
hahaha
anw

the shirt tt bee's wearing is for xiaode
coz bee dun wan
haha

and when i went home
she stood there like this
which is funny
so i took a pic of it.
sat was fun!!
pastor phill!!
joey's baptisim day!!
and pics were took
but i've out them up in facebook and is lazy to put it here
so you know what to do..

sun
when to help up to appear for a fashion show
brought the 91 line of tardies there
since tt magnae was not in singapore
and currently the 3 younger ones(suhui, bee, xiaode) are in JB
pic we took:

i realise at the end of the day i neh take pic with lao de>.< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_oJfz352xpQk/SpzILLWCUwI/AAAAAAAACyM/FwBC4AksKfk/s1600-h/P30-08-09_17.13%5B01%5D.JPG">

suhui ah suhui
i think i need to giv eyou not only general knowledge
but also how to catch the angle for selca!

becoz suhui was late
we start to selca!

random!!

anyway

that ft is is coming to singapore to cheat my money again
and i'm not sure if i were to be cheated by them again
hopefully the price is reasonable
and i'm able to afford them
so BYE to my money in advance
but to think of it
i will be able to see my 斯文败类 jinnie