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내 느낌

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그러므로,

내가 표현하고 싶지 않아

무슨 사랑인가?

난 .. 질문

난 너무 낮은 느낌이

미소를 원하지만 방법을 몰라

나만의 세계

내 숨어있는 장소

만약 당신이 나를 밖으로 데리고

with love
Cyra. 자헤

You've lost

FYI, this post will be a draggy, wordy and emotional one
if u can't take it pls don't continue reading

so here i starts everything
i think people around me will not feel anything wrong about me
but in the deepest end of my heart, i'm broke and lost
"WHAT'S NEXT?" i asked
GOD! What's the next path that you had plan for me to walk on?
It is about 1 yr ago since a thing like this happen
last year, in end of sept,
my mum burned my bible...
and this year,
she went to "create" problem to people around me
when she speaks,
i feels it was satan who was speaking to me
being accused, criticise etcs
these are all works of satan
i feel that i'm like in the wilderness
when Jesus was tempted by the devil
a year ago, he tries to do similar things
and somehow i fall into the trap
after tt incident, (maybe many does not know)
i start to hide myself inside a speacial box
that even when i tries to comes out, i can't
but now,
i tries to come out of this box,
i succeeded.
i have my head and body out
but someone else in the box tries to pulls me back
BUT!
this time round i did not let the stength of tt someone to pulls me back
i tried my best to come out of it
i know that all these are in the will of God
i'm willing to go through this
When God gave the permission to tt ugly satan,
he will protect me in a way
i have faith in Him
He is my KING of KINGS and LORD of LORDS
althought i feel so down because the person who accused
my church, my pastors, my zs, my cg leader, my God and me is my mum

i'm still proud and happy for myself
coz i'm now walking close with God
even when she hit me on my left
i gave her my right
coz my almighty Lord says in the bible
"whoever slaps you on your right cheek, turn the other to him also"

GOD! i think i've what you had taught me
now, i'm perpared for more
if there are more things that you have plan for me
i'm not worry, coz i have YOU in my life
in the name of JESUS all things shall be brought to past

i sing to you:
"Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from earth into Eternity"

You are my God now and forever..
never will i be away from You
my everything is Yours

even in my lowest point of time

i will hear only Your voice

only when i'm with You,
my knees will bow
my tongue will confess
only when i'm with You,
i'm no longer alone
i'm no longer afraid
coz i have you in my life

this is what i want You to know
my love for You will go on and on....

with love
Cyra. 자헤

uncle drank coke!

HIHI!!!
damn cool right this pic?!
i like and hate this pic
like because i think the lighting i adjust until damn nice(for me)
hate because my face too big and i look super old!
but ahh
nvm~~

just a update for what i've done recently
the very very very important thing that is a must to post!!!
my unclejunsu drank coke on mon!
and i send him to acer...
dun noe what's wrong with it
i want it back badly!
i've spend 2 school days without lappy!!
there's a saying
"you can be naked in RP but u cannot afford not to have laptop with you!"
so i shall say,
i feel so naked this 2 days!
hahaha~~~
OH YA!!!
and i would like to praise laode for this
SHE ACC ME DOWN TO JURONG!
laode is well lan recently
and and
ACER BUILDING SHOULD BE IN FAIL BLOG
i will take a pic when i go there the next time
i so wanna bring bee bee there
but she need to study!

i think i have not post on my school since school starts
i'm currently having 4 sch days per week
thurs is my "off day"
my class is quite
but hopefully it is getting noisy and will continue to grow
somehow i miss old class although they are freaking noisy
but somehow noise is still needed!
and we(w65a) are currently addicted to winnie's iphone de taptap
since ytd!!
the photo of playing taptap is in my phone
and i'm too lazy to move myself to my room to get it
so i shall post it some other days

and last sun, we pre celebrated suhui's birthday!
56! Happy 18th birthday!
(56 is currently suhui's new nick name)
me and beebee baked cake for her
we were super high at 1st coz the cake is super successful!
however, the making of cream is WTH
i shall not recall it to make myself upset
so ya..
and this is the "unglam" suhui blowing the candles:

(suhui, i did not purposely post this, but this is the only pic of you with the cake i have)
edna went off early well the other 4 of us stayed
we seems to be having an grown up party
we were forced by suhui's popo to finish up the drink
singing songs
(WE SANG NIWAWA AND 3ZHILAOHU)
hahaha
till pass midnight
beebee's wellan drove us home

and today wednesday!
riverwalk for prayermeeting and bs
drew a super nice piece of art!
shall take a pic of it when i complete the whole thing
I'M GENIUS!!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~~


my toh beebee is currently jiayou-ing for her A
so i also must jiayou for her
toh bee bee
jia you jia you jia you
you can do it!!
dun think for the worse!
think the bright side of it!
heehee
after your As you are free~~~
i cook rabokki for you after your As ok!
hahahaha
hug hug, kiss kiss~~~

alright
and i shall end here....

(my auntie style top)
BYE!

(going off to bed so that i got enough strength for tml - morning PM and helping out in citycare~)

with love
Cyra. 자헤